“Too many irons in the fire” or “to keep too many magpie’s tails” as we say in Polish. This is my challenge how to keep these tails and irons and not to loose anything precious.
If you saw a circus artist juggling then you realize how tricky the art of doing parallel things can be. For an untrained equilibrist like me it would be hardly possible to do it with full attention and with best results. Even so I keep doing it and asking myself: Would it be writing or maybe blogging? Should I focus on yoga, studying or working? Meeting with friends vs watching top new TV series? Read the pile of unpacked books next to my bed or just the untouched magazines from the coffee table? Is it the right moment to take on publishing new writers or should I just take my dog for a beach walk? How to get it all done? How to embrace it?
There’s even this book that I’ve been writing for the last couple of years and there’s also this dream about printing books and smelling their fresh print. On top of that I’ve recently heard this call for helping people to keep the world for our future generations. I even have an idea how to melt all these irons into one but… how to push myself over the edge and let it fly? I don’t want it to take another twenty years to ripen…
I was 8 years old and running down the stairs at my house in Raciborz with my friend Ela from the tenth floor, while her grandmother was slowly walking up, as the elevator was broken again. She stopped us, watched into my face and said quietly – Life is so, so short. Enjoy it when you still can. You won’t even notice when its gone…”
After all these years I still remember her voice and that moment on the staircase I remind myself every year and the sentence I put in front of my eyes each time I make difficult choices. So it will be this time.
Since I was a child there was always a fight in my mind between its right and left parts… In primary school my day schedule was filled with sport: swimming twice a day for 1.5 hrs workouts, weekly competitions, mid year workout camps. In the meantime I was trying to catch up with classes in math, chemistry, nature science carrying the books with me across the country. But when I was fed up with all that physical exhaustion I started to run a weekly school magazine…
Later on at high school, while solving mathematics/physics problems I used to sing in the choir and kept on issuing the magazine but this time in a monthly issues. There was so many maths and physics to catch up that these monthlies hardly managed to stay alive for those 4 years. But they did, fortunately.
When it came to think about the university, the choice was again very obvious and kinda natural. I started first with Drama School (why not?) but ended up on Environmental Pollution Science. You should know that I couldn’t imagine stop singing so I joined the Wroclaw University of Technology Choir. During the rest of my educational carrier I toured half of Europe and America and surely the whole Poland. I continued writing at home, “for the drawer” as we call it here …
Now…Is writing and singing enough while working for a high tech company? Nope, its not, so why not to start thinking of a human arts post graduate study? Which can be whatever but preferably philosophy, sociology close to any -ogies which may stir up my mind again and let the thinking flow and flow. For a technical mind with human arts flavor its a way of watering the soil, nourishing it with new ideas. It broadens perspectives and inspires that famous out of the box thinking, so desirable in our current liquid modernity as the polish sociologist calls “… the kind of chaotic continuation of modernity, where a person can shift from one social position to another in a fluid manner.”
Let it be fluid then and let’s see what happens next.